I got hit by a realization that it is good to be aware of: I have basically checked out of Guilford life. I am going to classes and meetings and things here and there and getting stuff done - but mentally I have checked out. I remember this really effecting Lucy (older kitchen apprentice) at Embercombe, she checked out about 3 months before leaving because that was when she needed to start planning what was happening next. She was kind but she definitely had a wall up because of that. Being aware of this happening is good. Now to act on making my life what I want--- (and figuring that out, even if just momentarily.) Thinking about what I do rather than just doing what I do because that is what I do.
Do not get me wrong, I am feeling fine. Before heading to the farm I spoke to James (one of the people in England I have given part of my heart to), I got to thin carrots at the farm, I got to eat, the meeting I was not looking forward to wasn't actually that bad, market happened... Things are good. Excited for when they will be great!
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